Title: The Changeling Game (Formerly Identity Theft)
Author: Ardath Rekha
Chapter: 84/?
Fandom: Pitch Black (2000); The Chronicles of Riddick (2004); The Chronicles of Riddick: Dark Fury (2004)
Rating: X
Warnings: Adult themes, controversial subject matter, harsh language, explicit sexual content
Category: Het
Pairing: Riddick/Jack
Summary: Even as Riddick grapples with the destiny Shirah wants him to embrace, he has to explain to Jack why it’s not time for her to embrace hers yet.
Disclaimer: The characters and events of Pitch Black, The Chronicles of Riddick, and The Chronicles of Riddick: Dark Fury are not mine, but belong to Universal Studios. I just wish I were in charge of their fates. No money is being made off of this. I’m writing strictly for love of the story.
Feedback: Absolutely, the more the better! Shred me, whip me, beat me, make me feel grammatical! I post “rough,” so I can always use the help. 😉
84.
The Götterdämmerung Trolley
“Do you see now? Who and what you are?”
Riddick hadn’t been visited by Shirah in a while. Now she stood in front of him again, the expression on her hawklike face intent. Around them an enormous graveyard spread out, tombstones covering hillsides and valleys.
“I know what you are,” he told her. “Still not sure what you think I’m supposed to be. This place even real?”
A slow smile spread over her face. “At last, you’re beginning to pay attention. Very good. And no, no graveyard such as this exists on Furya, but if all of the people Zhylaw killed had headstones raised to them, it would look a lot like this.”
“So I’m dreaming right now,” Riddick observed. “And you’ve pulled me into your mental space, the way your brothers and sisters pull Jack into theirs.” He paused, looking around, thinking it over. “Zhylaw. That was the name of the Lord Marshal I killed. The one who attacked our world.”
“I hope that today wasn’t the first time you realized that,” she said, a mirthless smile appearing on her face.
“Just the first day I’ve had all the pieces to the puzzle in my hands,” he countered. “See, here I thought you wanted me to destroy the Necros for you, but the whole time, you just wanted me to take them away from him.”
“I have no enmity for my brother. But he has never reined in the corruption of his vessels. The worse they behave, the more they confirm what he wishes to believe about all humanity.”
“How come you wear a human face?” Riddick asked her. It was still weird to realize what she really was. He’d seen how the Apeiros had puppeted Jack, but Shirah moved so naturally in her borrowed body that it was hard to believe she hadn’t been born in it.
“I have no other to wear anymore,” she told him, a mock-flirtatious smile appearing. “Don’t you like it? I’ve been told it’s very pretty.”
“It’s pretty. Whose was it?”
“Her name was Aiyana, and she lives in me still,” Shirah told him. “They all live on in me. Four hundred years of light-wielders.”
“Light bearer, light bringer, light wielder…” He shook his head. “The light ain’t where I belong.”
She shook her head right back at him. “When you walk into the darkness, Riddick, what is it you think you bring with you?”
“Death.”
Shirah laughed, gesturing around her at the tombstones. “You couldn’t even fill one of these fields. You’re not heartless enough.”
“No?” For a moment he felt insulted.
“Don’t pout, my Lightbringer. You are a warrior. But if you were the kind who could lay waste to whole worlds, who could wish to…” Her smile lit up her face, for a moment almost reminding him of Jack’s smile. “…I would never have marked you as one of mine.”
“Nobody owns me,” he growled.
“Nobody?” Shirah sounded both curious and teasing. “Not even her?”
For a moment he could see Jack, fast asleep beside him, wrapped in darkness and sheets and his arms, her sweat-soaked blonde hair tousled from more than an hour of intense… what, exactly? Fucking? Lovemaking? Something in between?
“She’d never try to.”
“And yet you spent five years alone in a cold wilderness for her. A year turning over every stone in your path… for her. Does none of that make you hers?” Shirah sat down on one of the tombstones, watching him with curiosity.
“The fuck do you care?” he demanded, wishing he could find a doorway out of the dream. She was really starting to piss him off.
“Both of you have been called to this war,” she told him, a look of pity on her face, “but you have very different roles to play in it. No matter how you may try, your destinies will never be entwined.”
“I’m gettin’ really fuckin’ sick of all this destiny bullshit,” he growled. “You, the Moribund, Lucy, the rest of the Apeiros… How the fuck do you know what’s coming?”
“I hatched into my six-shape more than four hundred years ago,” she told him, her expression sobering. “And the Demons of the Darkness came for me and for my brothers and sisters. You know what they did to us. But what they set into motion, in the doing of it, is far worse. Every universe will end, Riddick, if their act isn’t negated. Worlds are already breaking thanks to them. They do not care. There is only one pathway left, for any of us, if anything is to survive. One sequence of events that can stop it. If you choose not to play your part, maybe another will step forward, or maybe all the worlds will fall and everything will end. It’s time for you to choose. If not for me… for her.”
As she had spoken, the graveyard around them had vanished, replaced by a starfield not unlike the one inhabited by the Apeiros in Jack’s dreams. But, he suddenly realized, the stars weren’t stars at all. Each bright light was an entire universe, locked in an intricate dance with all of the others… and the lights were failing. One after another, they guttered and died like burned out candles. Emptiness spread, a cold and terrible void that had no beginning or end and would devour everything…
Another graveyard. The last graveyard.
“Destiny,” he heard Shirah say, “or oblivion. Choose now, before the choice is taken from us all.”
He woke, gasping. “Fuck…”
Beside him on the bed, Jack slept on, one hand curled against her cheek, a slight smile touching her lips. She looked far too fragile to be some kind of warrior of light anywhere in the destiny everybody was spinning, too innocent. But he knew that was an illusion. She was stronger than she knew… if not quite strong enough yet.
It was hard for him to even articulate what had happened between them, what it meant, where it might go… but Jack had awakened a surprising hunger within him, which she’d then somehow managed to sate as well. He’d never, ever had a sexual partner take over from him and run the show before…
…and he was surprised by just how much he had liked it.
But he’d come dangerously close to dropping his shields and letting her see everything, including all the things that she could never know.
He lay beside her for a while, contemplating waking her to tell her about Shirah’s visit. There was so much she wasn’t supposed to know yet, though.
After a moment, he climbed out of bed and padded into the bathroom.
The room had changed somehow. He looked around, frowning and trying to figure out what was different about it. When he finally spotted the difference, he was amazed that it had taken him so long to see it.
Near the enormous bathtub, practically a swimming pool, some deranged sculptor had erected a statue of a grim-looking man peeling off his own skin. Riddick had made a point of covering the damned thing up with towels and spare bathrobes so that he didn’t have to contemplate it on his way to the shower room.
The towels and robes were folded up neatly on a bench nearby. The statue itself was simply gone.
The damned thing had been enormous, made of solid black marble.
He walked over to the space it had occupied.
Part of the base was still on the floor, smoothly blending in with the marble tiling all around it, a solid slab of polished stone level with the rest of the floor.
“That’s some fuckin’ skill she’s got,” he muttered to himself after a moment. Glancing around the room, he spotted other smooth places in the stone where gruesome carvings had disappeared.
Wait a second…
He’d walked right past it on his way back into the rooms, so intent upon his need to hold Jack, to lose himself in her, that he hadn’t even noticed what else had been lost. The centerpiece of the receiving room, a statue depicting torture that he’d covered over with equally disgusting tapestries for more than a year…
…that had been gone too.
The tapestries, as he recalled, hadn’t been folded up; they’d simply been gone as well. He wouldn’t miss any of them.
With all the Grand Guignol elements of the rooms stripped away, what was left had an almost Art Deco feel. He liked it. Looking around, he spotted other evidence of how Jack had spent her time while he was recruiting friends for her, and possibly how they had spent time once their breakfast was over: piles of women’s clothing, and some men’s clothing that was definitely not his, had been carefully folded up and arranged in a corner, along with baskets full of odds and ends: toiletries, strange pieces of jewelry, other things that Jack obviously had no interest in and intended to have cleared out. One dressing table had been set up with an array of basic-looking grooming supplies and even a few pieces of makeup that she’d apparently decided were worth keeping. The rest of the clutter had vanished.
Nice.
A few baskets and piles, he noticed, had papers on top with names scrawled on them, in eyeliner if he wasn’t mistaken: Poly, Lola, Vanessa. Items that she’d apparently set aside for them.
I’ll let the Ennead Kids go through the rest of the stuff before it’s all carted off, he decided. Who knew what they might want? The thing he liked most of all was seeing just how little interest Jack had in material possessions, aside from those things that would be most useful.
There was, he realized, one more labeled pile. He hadn’t expected it to hurt so much to look at. Kyra.
She was saving some things for Kyra.
“Fuck.” Even now it was hard to resist his certainty that Kyra was dead.
He moved on to the shower room, noticing that Jack had placed a small collection of toiletries, along with a long-handled bath brush he’d never seen before, by one of the showerheads a few heads down from his. She appeared to have adjusted the temperature settings of that head to suit her, too. No surprise that she’d need to; he didn’t burn and had his showerhead set to what one of his foster mothers had always called “devil hot.”
He was most of the way through his shower when Jack turned on the water near him and began her own. He couldn’t resist turning to watch her as he rinsed off.
He liked how tall she was, her eye level only two or three inches below his. It had frustrated her, in her memories, that so many men found her height intimidating, but he didn’t. It was, he decided, a turn-on, and not the only one. She was slender but athletic, good muscle tone throughout her body. She had a runner’s legs—no surprise from all her memories of track meets—and he had the suspicion that she might even have succeeded in her goal of being able to not merely keep up with him but outrun him.
Not that I’ve been slacking off…
He wanted to bury himself inside her all over again. As much as he kept being afraid she’d break in his hands, that wasn’t what happened. She’d spent five years—even her sleeper year—training to fight in a war, even if the particulars of that war were still being withheld from her. In some ways she was every bit as strong as him.
He’d drifted over to her stream as he contemplated her. She was rinsing her hair, eyes closed against any shampoo suds that might try to slide into them, head tilted back. Soaked and plastered to her head, her blonde hair looked nearly brown, the way it would become if she remained trapped in the Basilica and cut off from the sun. He let his hunger for her slip through his shields so that she would know he was there before he slid his arms around her and pressed his lips to her throat.
Her answering spike in arousal almost undid him on the spot. She slipped her arms around his shoulders, one hand resting on the back of his neck, and tilted her head back even more for him.
She liked her water much cooler than he typically set his, but it was still warm, the temperature of a rain shower on a hot summer day, the kind he’d played in as a kid back when he’d believed he’d grow up to be a normal man. It was funny how frequently Jack reminded him of that time, of being that boy, still innocent and with a whole life to look forward to. It was like she’d conjured that kid back from oblivion.
’Cept it ain’t that boy holdin’ her now… He balanced carefully on the tiles, not wanting it all to end with both of them sprawling on the floor, and lifted her up so he could wrap her legs around him. It was a move he knew she liked.
He had, after all, been given access to the most amazing and comprehensive carnal cheat sheet that had ever been created. He knew exactly where to touch her and how, exactly what not to do, and how to bring on a wild climax as quickly or slowly as he pleased. His lips and tongue sought out her most sensitive places on her throat and chest even as he slid inside her warm depths.
“So is this shower sex or locker room sex?” Jack asked as she writhed against him in time with his thrusts. “This room is huge.”
“It’s really-hopin’-I-don’t-slip-and-fall sex,” he told her, restraining a laugh. “Careful or you’re gonna wriggle right off me.”
“Pfft! Never happen.” She wanted him to lift his face up to hers; he could feel it. He did, and almost laughed when she ran the tip of her tongue along his lips. He couldn’t recall seeing her try that before. She was endlessly inventive. He licked her lips right back before claiming her mouth in a deep kiss.
He brought her to another intense orgasm—although the two came closer to losing their balance than he was ever going to admit as she flailed wildly in his grasp—before reveling in his own release while she gasped his name. In the aftermath, she rested her head on his shoulder, sighing. She liked it best when she was held through the afterglow; he knew that every bit as well as he knew the exact places to touch her, every bit as well as he knew all of her favorite acts. The power of that knowledge was intoxicating. No uncertainty, no worry of an offer or request inspiring disgust… none of the things that had gotten in the way of his rare attempts to connect with any woman on a deeper level during the fourteen years that he’d improbably topped the Federacy’s WANTED posters. He held Jack close until he felt the moment when she was ready for him to let her go and help her regain her footing.
She gave him a wondering smile; he could feel her wanting to ask him how he’d done everything even though she already knew. “I can’t decide if we need another shower,” she told him with a laugh in her voice, “or another nap.”
He had no particular desire, himself, to go back to sleep. Not if Shirah was going to be waiting to harangue him about the end of the multiverse. “Got a few things I need to do to finish gettin’ things ready for you around here. A few things I need to find out. Especially if what Lucy said about Kyra is true.”
“It is,” Jack told him, retrieving a shower puff she’d appropriated—and why didn’t it surprise him that even shower puffs were black in the Necromonger Armada?—and soaping herself down. “I talked to her again while we were sleeping. Things make a lot more sense after what Lucy told us. I’d had this odd feeling she wasn’t inhabiting a physical space, but I thought maybe that was because we were meeting somewhere between our physical locations.”
“Like when you meet the Apeiros.”
“Yeah, like that. I mean, she’d asked me how long she’d be there, but I guess…” Jack stopped frowning as she dug into the thought. “I guess I didn’t realize that she wasn’t anywhere else, too.”
“’Cause you are.” He stepped back under his own showerhead, cleaning up from their most recent bout of—
What, exactly? He didn’t know whether to call it fucking or lovemaking, and both terms seemed wrong somehow.
“Yeah,” Jack agreed. “She isn’t afraid of them anymore, though. I guess that’s good. She says they’ve told her things about what’s coming and how she’ll come back, but she wouldn’t say what they were.”
Well, that was interesting.
Jack switched off her showerhead and reached for a towel. He did the same.
“It bothers you,” he said. Not a question. A fact.
“Well, yeah.” Jack finished drying herself off and nodded toward the larger room before walking toward it. He followed, enjoying the view as they went.
I hate to see you leave, but I love to watch you go… Demme had used that phrase, and it had made a lot more sense to him than the version he’d grown up with, where somehow the two verbs had gotten switched around. Go baby, go…
He could happily watch her go for hours.
Gonna have to go runnin’ with her, he decided. Then I can watch her go the whole time, from right behind her.
He had a feeling that might end with him pouncing her and them “christening” a public space on the ship.
Jack was picking out articles of clothing from a wardrobe she’d taken over. “I’m not thirteen anymore. I know how to be discreet. I’ve spent what, five years now, almost six, getting ready for whatever it is that’s coming. When is everybody in the know finally gonna clue me in? Even Kyra knows more about what’s going on than I do, and she opted out of all of it years ago.”
“Ain’t about whether you’d be indiscreet,” Riddick told her, pulling fresh clothes out of one of his drawers. Unlike Jack, who seemed to want to live in mermaid blues and greens, he didn’t mind that most Necromonger clothing came in Graveside Black.
“Then what is it about?” she grumbled.
He’d told her that before, he thought as he pulled on a pair of cargo pants that had only the slightest hint of the scale texture Necromongers seemed to love so much. He’d told her what the real reason was, but apparently she hadn’t heard him, too focused on thoughts of discretion and impulse control. He didn’t want to have this discussion again, but maybe it needed to happen. She needed to know enough to stop asking, stop railing against it.
Might just be a side effect of a year spent not even remembering that she can isomorph, he thought. She’d had her fundamental identity taken away for a while. That was probably her real issue. Well one of them.
“The real problem, Jack, is that you’re not strong enough yet for what you’d need to do with the knowledge if you had it.”
She frowned at him. “And everybody thinks I won’t be able to control myself enough until I am.”
Yes. But no.
Fuck, she’s not gonna like hearing this.
“Okay. This is probably gonna piss you off. But remember, you asked.” He sat down on the bench near her, pulling a sleeveless shirt over his head. She was mostly dressed, too, but was waiting impatiently for him to continue. “I want you to imagine something, and it’s gonna get pretty fucked up but I need you to go there with me.”
“Okay…?”
“You’re walking home one evening. You get to your apartment building. It’s a tall building, probably hundreds of people live in it. At this time of the evening, most everybody’s probably home, too. So. You’ve just come in through the front door, and you smell smoke.”
Jack sat down on the bench, too, and nodded for him to continue.
“You realize a fire has broken out in the basement and is starting to spread. The sprinklers should have already started going, and the alarms, but they haven’t. You also know that, in addition to the furnaces and boilers, there’s an apartment in the basement, and one of its occupants is a baby. You know that for sure because you can hear it crying.”
Jack’s brows furrowed. “Shit, Riddick—”
“I warned you. You wanna hear this or not?”
“Go on.”
“You go down into the basement and you can see where the fire must’ve started, and how it’s spreading. You realize that it’s gonna reach the furnaces in the next few minutes, and there’s one that has a faulty gas valve, keeps leakin’… and when the fire gets to it, the building might just explode. It’s also spreading toward the baby’s room, but it ain’t there yet. And, over in a corner, you can see where the valves that control the sprinklers are. Looks like the main control valve got stuck. It’ll take you a few minutes to wrestle it open, but you can probably manage to do it and get the sprinklers working before the flames get to that faulty gas valve. If you start right now.”
Jack nodded. He could feel her visualizing it. She had a good imagination.
“So here’s the problem. If you get to work on wrestling that valve open right now, you’ll stop the building from exploding… but you won’t stop the fire from getting to the baby. You’ll probably have to hear it die while you’re saving everybody else. If you go get the baby out of the fire’s path, you won’t have enough time to open the valve… but you can probably get out of the building with the kid before everything blows up and all the rest of your neighbors die. So. What do you do?”
“Fuck, Riddick, that’s sick.”
“C’mon. You have to have heard variations of this puzzle.” Iterations on it had circulated for centuries, probably millennia.
“Yeah, and they all suck.”
“So. What do you do, Jack?”
“There’s no right answer, Riddick.” She looked increasingly put out.
“Ain’t about a right answer. It’s about instinct. It’s about what you react to first and most. And what you can accept. You want to know what you’d do?” He raised his eyebrows at her.
“What makes you think you know?”
“Been deep in your head, girl. You don’t have any secrets from me. And yeah, I know exactly what you’d do.”
A challenging look crossed her face. “Okay, fine. What would I do, Riddick?”
“There’s no way you can listen to that baby scream as it dies. You go straight for it, grab it out of its crib. But. You don’t run out of the building. Do you? Hundreds of other lives are at stake. You think maybe, just maybe, you can get that valve to open in the time that’s left. You set the baby down by your feet and start wrestling with the valve, aware that the fire is getting closer and closer to setting off the explosion. And just as you feel the valve starting to turn, you see the bright flash of the gas igniting and realize you’re outta time. You die. The baby dies. Everybody in the building dies. ’Cause you wanted to save everybody and couldn’t accept that you wouldn’t be able to.”
A look of horror had crept over Jack’s face as he’d described it all. “You are such a shit sometimes.”
“Maybe. But you know I’m right. It’s who you are. You can’t give up on either the baby or your neighbors.”
She closed her eyes, reluctantly acknowledging his words with a tight-lipped nod.
“But here’s the other thing about that,” he continued. “This hatching thing… it’s gonna give you power. A whole fuckload of it. Enough that you could save the baby and wrench that valve open and still have time to have a cup of coffee. Hell, maybe enough that you could walk into the room and make the fire disappear. You ain’t there yet, though. And what everybody’s afraid of is that you’ll try to save the day before you’re powerful enough to do more than throw your life away in the tryin’.”
“Fuck,” she whispered. As she opened her eyes, a tear slid from one along her thick lashes and dropped down onto her lap. “What about you, Riddick? What would you do?”
“Ain’t no hero, that’s for sure,” he told her. But that wasn’t a real answer. “Used to be, I thought I’d just walk away. Not my fight, not my people. I told myself I could just… not care. Not hear. Walk away. That was a lie.”
“And…?” He was being too evasive; she was getting pissed off again.
“The baby. Every fuckin’ time, Jack. When you were under that bone. When the Necros took Kyra from me.” When he’d broken off his mission to rescue Officer Lola and those kids instead of trusting that whatever cleanup crew was coming after them would “discover” the crime boss’s captives and free them all some other way. When he’d let Johns take him prisoner so the merc would stop shooting little kids…
Every fuckin’ time. The baby was what he couldn’t turn his back on. The hell with everybody else. The hell with what might come next, like what the fuck would he do with a baby, aside from leave it on a doorstep and hope whoever found it would take care of it—
—The way I did with Jack six years ago—
—or what else might be lost in the process. That baby was his Achilles heel. Always had been. He couldn’t listen to it scream its last. He might murder the whole fuckin’ ’verse if he was forced to. “I’ll always go for the baby.”
And that, he realized suddenly, was why Shirah kept bugging him about choosing a path, when he’d thought he already had. Because he wasn’t doing any of this to save the multiverse, or even the only ’verse he’d ever personally known.
Everything he’d been doing was about making things safe for Jack.
And what if he couldn’t?